3April2011 1030

Stacey and I had been woke up at 1030 by the Dr to hear that our lil man was having a hard time breathing. She began to tell us that he had to be put back on oxygen and that he was not able to eat due to that fact. The Dr told us that she had done an xray of Jrs lungs and that they found a large grey area in his chest cavity. Stacey and I were crushed. Our lil man was only about 3 ½ weeks early. She told us that they were going to have to run some tests on him and that hopefully, those tests would give us some answers. She told us that she thought he might have a hole in his lungs. We were scared to the fact that he was so tiny and could have issues with his lungs. She did tell us that if he did have a hole in his lung, that it could be repaired. She said that they would run the 2 tests on Jr and then we would know for sure about his condition. The first test was another chest xray. If the chest xray came back with the large grey area, they would have to do a light test on his stomach. If there was a hole in Jrs lungs, we had 2 options. First one was that they would puncture my lil mans side and relieve the air, the second was that if the hole didn’t close, they would have to insert a chest tube and connect it to a pump so that the air going into his cavity could be relieved. I was terrified that this was happening. After the Dr left, I did my best to calm Stacey down. I told her that we would be strong for him and that the good Lord had him in His arms of strength.
I then went to the bathroom and closed the door. I went to my knees and prayed to the Lord. I did this because I didn’t want to upset her more than she was already and that I was falling apart and didn’t want her to see it. First, I asked the Lord to lift us up from this and keep us safe. I prayed for my sons health and all the babies in the NICU. I asked him to take my strength and health and give it to my son. I told him that I would do that for him, he did it for me.
I must say that hitting my knees was the best thing I could have done, for all of us. After I put myself back together, I came out of the bathroom with a plan.
Our plan was to not give up and to not give in. We would not let our new little boy know any different. We would act as if nothing was wrong. We headed down to the NICU and seen Jr.
This is my very first testimony.
This is also the day that Jr started his recovery.